Kicking In The Wall
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It’s been a long time that I’ve written here. So I’m going to start an exercise of writing here almost every day. I’m kicking in the wall. What wall? The one Patti Smith spoke of.
I would go as far as I could and hit a wall, my own imagined limitations. And then I met a fellow who gave me his secret, and it was pretty simple. When you hit a wall, just kick it in. — Patti Smith
Kicking In The Wall
Today, I’m deciding to kick the wall in. To write every single day for the next 100 days. A 100 day project. To write something, anything. Writing bravely.
To write without censor. To write in a systematic way every single day. To make this a part of my routine.
This writing is essentially to get the creativity and writing habit flowing.
What is my wall?
My wall is my need for perfection. There’s distraction and a lot of time wasted. But behind it all is self-doubt and fear. What if my writing doesn’t really make sense? Who is going to read it?
It’s a rabbit hole of comparison.There are so many people out there writing and doing it beautifully. Why will my writing be any different? Then there’s the whole idea of trying to be like someone else — as a good as______ as relevant as_______ as fluent as______.
It’s an endless list of things that stops me from writing much more and using my voice to write. I must believe in my writing. I must write firstly to express myself and then to let others be inspired, moved, affected in some deep way by my writing. But before that, I must believe that I and my writing have the power to do this.
I must kick in the wall of self-doubt that is keeping me from writing bravely.
Don’t believe your excuses — Natalie Goldberg
No more excuses. I’m kicking in the wall. TODAY.
